im came back home having just had one of the best weekends ever. i made a list of everything possible that i could accomplish in san diego and went out and did it. all of it. it was crazy fun and i ate amazing food! i had a great time with my cousins especially. it feels so good just going out doing whatever and not being bored for even a second.
anyways, i get back here and im all of a sudden in the pissed off mood. not sure why but i think its because it kinda bugs me when im joking around and people dont get that. im not sure if people even get me here. or maybe its just me. i hate this whole thing. i fucking especially hate it when people act like they are listening to me but i know they didnt even here a word i said. just giving me these vague responses that kinda go with the convo. i want to be like dont waste my time, but at the same time i dont wanna lose a friend.
just had a pretty deep convo with my cousin. i hate how asian families try to control you so much. my grandpa robbed her of one of the most important moments of her life. he forced her to marry. she didnt get a proposal or a wedding. they went to court just to make him happy. is he happy they got married? are they happy?
i hope no one has to go through what she had to go through. why cant we choose to be with? why should others care? why should i care that you care? && the whole racism thing is dumb. what if i want to be with a black guy? or a hispanic? or a black-hispanic? oh, u dont approve? well, fuck you. add me to ur black list. see if i care.
yesterday i was so bummed that everyone had left for the long weekend. even this girl that said she would stay because she goes home every other weekend went home. no surprise there i guess. but it really got to me because i had been dying to go to san diego, so i pretty much packed my bags crazy fast, bought a ticket, and left. just like that. it was cool because i ran into a friend when waiting for the train and we sat together for half the trip. going the rest of the way, i just did my homework. it was super stressful, but i got it done thanks to a friend. for reals. idk why she did it because ive been so annoyed with her and avoiding her, but she still did it anyways. now im here. i ate the sinigang my grandma made me for dinner :3. i couldnt be happier. idk why but lately ive been in such a great mood!